Insomnia

Ahhh my second late night in as many nights. Why do I always feel like I never need any sleep immediately after my exams? Yeah that sounds familiar. And so is waking up the next morning regretting how I felt the night before. Alas Im rostered to serve in church tomorrow and therefore I really can't afford to pull any unearthly stunts tonight. I should have been in bed ages ago. I apologise for my misbehaviour.

I had attended an awesome prayer meet earlier this evening before retiring to my friend's place where a smaller group of us just sat around and chatted. The prayer meet reminded me again of how much God loves my family. Well... and how much he loves everyone else family for that matter. I have never prayed so hard for something before. And I have cried more over my parents and brothers than everything else in my life put together. The verse that He gave me was simple but powerful. Something God wanted me to stop knowing in my head and to start experiencing.

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
And lean not on your own understanding
In all your ways acknowledge him
And he will make your paths straight.

Prayer items tonight:
1. Family
2. Launch of Hope for Herbertpur
3. An expectant heart for church
4. Smooth ushering

Deep Down Inside Im Actually Very Superficial...

I was walking home from a friend's place late last night while carelessly munching on a piece of donut when a girl standing at the side of the road said 'Yummy'. I turned around to acknowledge her and went 'Yeah. It is pretty good' to which she replied 'Yeah? Well that's good. You have a good morning' and I gave the standard 'Thanks. You too' and continued on my way.

As I was walking I started to wonder if I really cared what her morning was like. Surely if I were to wish anyone a good morning it was because I honestly wanted their morning to be good. But then I realized I actually couldnt care less how her morning went. And I was pretty confident that she had as much concern for my morning as I did for hers. So why did we find it necessary to exchange such pleasantries?

It is strange that we sometimes tend to say things that merely sounds nice or is what we think the other person wants to hear rather than what we actually feel. But I suppose 'Thanks. You too' is highly preferable to 'Thanks. I wish I could say the same for your morning' even though that is decidedly more accurate. But I can't shake off the feeling that our paths may never cross again. And now I could only wish that I had something more substantial to say to her than that.

Elective 2008

After 4 months of deliberation I've managed to cut the list down to 10 and thought it deserved an entire new post of its own. From here on a single destination country would be removed every other week until I make my final pick in mid-november. Cost has yet to be taken into consideration and I am still in the midst of working out my means of funding.

Shortlisted Countries For Elective 2008 - 11th Round
1. China
2. France
3. Kenya/Tanzania
4. Peru
5. Tibet
6. Turkey
7. United Arab Emirates
8. Zambia/Zimbabwe

Eliminated
1. Brazil
2. Egypt